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Eiyo long time no writing any journal entriesssss yes I'm still alive, though low in drawing muse-- which is kinda related to the title. So basically :iconcrystaltales: is going to be over soon with its additional event after the story ended, and I need a new 'container' to get crazy in. Making my own game/visual novel/comic is too taxing for my current lifestyle so RP group comes in handy since it can be flexible. THOUGH, I can't find an group that fits my criteria:

- modern world setting with fantasy features (Persona series is the best example, tho I don't want to join another persona group)
- has quite a dark twist
- active (not like 100 members-active, just not dying is enough)
- will not die after (or even before) its first event

As I grow older, I find it difficult to join just a slice-of-life HS romance/friendship rp group which is very peaceful (as in, your oc's life won't be threatened unless you throw a yakuza's son down the cliff), yet a high-fantasy rp group kinda bores me at the moment since I've been working on FF-based group for years now. So for the change of pace and muse, I'd love to join an rp group which criteria is close to what I want above~ Please link me any if you know something!

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...and another option is to make a new one on my own LOOOOOL. I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR IT but I'm not sure tho, if I commit into it I'll just make the time whenever and wherever. Knowing me I'll commit into it until the end even if I have to sacrifice souls to satan :iconhecryplz: (yes, souls, not mine :3c). Buuuuuuut I'm not sure if anyone would be interested in modern setting with dark-ish fantasy twist in it. Some kind of Magic Knight Rayearth thing for example. I wonder if the idea is a bit old school already? What's your thoughts on this?

ps: dammit I've already made new elemental system now what should I do with this aaaaaaaaaaa <o>
  • Listening to: CoL - Hymn of Light
  • Reading: Arslan Senki
  • Watching: Kamen Rider Build
  • Playing: Overwatch
  • Eating: McD
  • Drinking: herbal brews
...idk what to write for the title so I just picked nearest product beside me :iconimmastupidplz:

Anyway, yo people! It seems that I always update my journal when I'm about to have vacation at hometown (or already there) but yeah, some life updates here~

This month is one of the busiest work months at office, a chain combo of events from Halloween to Christmas, then CNY, vday, white day, and also Easter. We're kinda short of artists yet new tasks keep coming which is both exciting and sigh-able. Fortunately it doesn't require me to overtime, just jumping around different tasks at once. My job doesn't teach me a lot of new stuff but it's overall a very good drill in repeating the same process over and over again until your skills get better (or faster). Thankfully I got to pick up my pixel animation skill again now after being long forgotten~ The animator at HQ didn't even know that I was hired as an pixel artist :iconbiggrinfaceplz:

Gaming life, still heavily drunk on Overwatch. It's pretty expensive to buy when it was still on pre-order but thanks to the game, I didn't even purchase any other game throughout the year :iconareyouawizardplz: It's just too addictive and too fun to be neglected over other games. At least now I can call myself a pro Mercy and yes, I will leave you to die if you're out of reach of my healing and will mute you if you're getting too demanding-- I'm staring at you, Genji players.

Daily life... McD and pork meals still rob the money outta me :iconshadowedplz: I can't seem to stop being tempted by those two food; McD for being super unhealthy and pork meals for being super expensive. They're just too good :iconweepplz: Maybe I should shift my daily cooking into something more meaty since the usual almost-vegetarian meals make me crave junk food uhuhuhuuuu

Oh and about last month, I bought a DSLR camera! Went to Kuala Lumpur to meet this butt yaocchi and we spent 2,5 days exploring the city. I dropped my lens cover into Sarasvati's lake in Batu Caves T__T imma count it as an offering then... please bless me, o goddess of arts and music. Going to Islamic Arts Museum also ignited my dream in visiting Turkey, especially the Istanbul grand bazaar! Maybe I should plan a trip there for real next year with my mom and sis, and that'd be our first trip together to Europe. The only obstacle is that me and sis love to visit countries which offer high cultural value (Mongolia, Nepal, Bhutan, India) while my mom demands to visit popular world tourism destinations (Eiffel tower, Liberty statue, Great Wall) which we don't get excited for. Mom's gonna sulk if me and sis go alone even to the countries she doesn't want to visit, soooo I hope we can get an agreement over Turkey somehow. 

Well now online life~ Soon :iconcrystaltales: main plot story will officially ended in 2 months or so. It was a bumpy road somewhere in the progress but overall it was an exciting 2 years. This will be my first group which I co-founded with friends that follows the initial schedule from start to end (with some delays but still kinda on time). I learned a lot about leadership and management here, hopefully I'm a good-enough leader for the whole group since working life influenced me a lot in it-- being strict in giving feedback and all. It'll be useful if, iiiiiiiiiiiif, in the future I decide to lead another rp group (WHICH I SHOULDN'T BECAUSE I'M BUSY BUT I JUST CAN'T STOP RP-ING AND I'M NOT A GOOD MEMBER :iconsobbplz:). We'll see, we'll see.... :iconrlytearplz:
  • Listening to: Revo - La ragazza col fucile
  • Reading: Shokoku no Altair
  • Watching: Zero ~Dragon Blood
  • Playing: Overwatch
  • Eating: McD
  • Drinking: coke
Today is the last day at hometown. I've been eating much and hanging out with my sis on motorbike (I'm the driver ofc). My bro's laptop broke right before he and my mom left for another city to attend an event, so I lent him mine until I'm back to work or when the event ends around 24th. Oh god my cat is destroying stuff again BYE


★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★
Will be having family trip from today 9th to 12th which will be mostly off to borneo beach and divin', then back to hometown for some more family time until 17th. Hopefully will be more active online on those days but for now, cya! :iconkissingplz:
...okay I was tagged by 32942304 people long while ago I love you guys but I'm forever suck with writing so for now I'll post one of the tagged OCs. I've finished typing his weeks ago since he's my most familiar OC thus easy to list down his facts. Hopefully will find time and mood to continue writing others' :icongtthplz:

Who tagged me again... :iconraginglenplz: yaocchi Fortranica Oseike chocominty Ushimipan Dante-Aran ???

Aaand here we go, my golden bunn's facts~

CT - Yngvarr Lowenhielm by yami-izumi :iconcrystaltales:

Yngvarr Lowenhielm

1. He hates seafood with passion.
Let's face it-- fish is smelly but shellfish takes the trophy. They have too many legs (he considers them ocean bugs), mushy slimy yucky flesh under the hard shells, and some even have wriggly legs which squirm when being cooked. It gives your mouth bad breath also after eating. Definitely -100 of 10.

2. Ocean is never his forte.
He can't swim and gets seasick really easily even on short ferry trip from island to island. Though recently Lorrant has found a way to prevent it: ginger tea.

3. His favorite season is spring.
Spring has comfortable temperature, neither too hot or too cold. He can still wear layered clothes and chill beside a fireplace at night. Blooming flowers which become the main theme of Meion spring festival is also his favorite too (plus it's always near his birthday).

4. He longs for a family.
Not the type of getting married + having kids kind of family, but the existence of mother figure, father, sister, brother, etc. He has been away from home for too long (86 years waow) and be the only of his race who's outside the village. Even though he has friends (even a lover now), most of them will die too soon for his hundreds years of lifespan and that makes him feeling lonely sometimes.

5. He has started to enjoy the company of his underlings.
Aka the guildsmen, a bunch of strangers who he suddenly had to babysit command about and have been around for a year or so. At first he only saw them as mere assets to reach his own goal but after time passed, he considered them (some) close friends and one of them even become his lover (Lorrant). He will try to spend more personal time with them in the future.

6.He has little to no sexual drive.
Unless getting drugged or being really aggressively teased on, he won't get excited at the tiniest bit. Mentally this is due to his lack of having offsprings and physically, he's not confident about those huge scars on his lower body. Even though so far the pervert Lorrant has managed to slip in some naughty moments, his relationship with him definitely isn't for sex.

7. Androgynous appearance.
Well this one isn't surprising that he charms both genders almost evenly. He likes grooming himself for smooth skin, well-manicured nails, and shiny golden hair wafting the sweet scent of camellia. Even though beauty is closely related to female, he hates being told 'pretty like a woman'. Not that he sees women as lesser gender but a man can be beautiful while being addressed like what he is!

8. Carrot is his favorite food.
As much as it reminds him of the lesser creature (rabbits), one can't simpy decline a delicious carrot cake or any other carrot dish in general. This fact is very well-known among the castle staff and they make sure their general gets his daily dose of the vegetable in his meal. The amount of carrot has doubled up eversince he got fatally injured few months ago (he refused to eat anything but carrot cake did the magic) and Lorrant calls it 'the carrot curse'.


also he may make this kind of expression :iconyaybunnyplz: when surprised

small life update: GOSH EVERYTHING'S SO FCKED UP WORK IS SO BUSY PEOPLE ARE ANNOYING VEGETABLES ARE EXPENSIVE XXX YYY ZZZ but hey mcd still tastes heavenly and I found a great pork resto nearby. I'm Overwatch-ing a great time on breaks too. Life's good~
Got back to work yesterday and I was so overwhelmed and such and still reallyyyy tireeeeeeed

I slept for 12 hours straight after I got home, 10 hours straight last night and hopefully tonight will be the last fatingued day :iconnashaplz:. Well considering that I kept moving places and walking, I have expected this :iconlulfaceplz:

Japan was greaaaaat I got faaaaatzzzzzz

OH AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BUNNY SON I FORGOT IT'S TODAY AFTER PLANNING TO CELEBRATE IT FOR MONTHS I'M A BAD MUN :iconraginglenplz:



WILL BE TRAVELING THERE UNTIL 5TH APRIL, WILL ALSO BE NETLESS, BACK TO BUSINESS ON 6TH BYE I'LL HAVE FUUUUN SEE YA
Update: half a month later and I'm still pretty busy...mentally.

I don't have any serious life-or-death situation that frustrated me but I guess I could vent here a little, the place where none of my family members are present and just few numbers of RL friends who I might meet on daily basis here. If you happen to be one, please don't mention it to me IRL. What being said here stays here.

- Work issue -
Got some progress in my career after whipping my ass off for a year, and I'd admit it's not going that sweet. It could be as sweet as I've been wanted but it also will need more hard work, even more than I've already done. Not to mention the pressure from inside (I overthink a lot) and outside. I become really conscious in everything I do, in how I position myself in this new chaos and even though I know this turmoil won't last long (I hope), it still frustrates me.

- Family issue -
Government papers issue. I got everything covered since I've been saving money like crazy so basically this wouldn't be a problem EXCEPT...when your parent demands you something that could be registered as 'ridiculous', forcing a trip which would need a lot of money to be spent just for something called pride. I can't spend that much money twice at the same time and being broke after that. There are a lot of other stuff to be considered rather than just following my parent's nagging. Plus, followed by the issue at work, I prefer to not being away too much at least until August where I will get some settlement on the matter. (update: I decided to go anyway)

- Personal issue -
I've been too hard on myself. Yep, no kidding, and I will continue doing so since it's already flowing in my veins. Some things are getting frustrating and to be honest I've been trying hard to act like nothing happened, it's a bad habit of mine. The sunny, merry, understanding personality of mine has to be around 24/7 or I'll feel guilty of being not. Forcing myself to smile and joke on a problem like it's nothing bad then having a breakdown once I'm alone. And oh how I hate it when people say it might be caused by menstruation cycle like thank you very much for degrading all my problems which drift away my sanity little by little into a joke.



I'm coping with everything-- I have people I can talk my problems to and have fun to release some steam so I'm not at the edge of a cliff. Improving my daily mood is also my personal goal and I've done few drastic changes in order to maintain the balance plus making it less toxic. With things happening like this, I'd like to request you to be a little gentler if you have issues with me. I'll try my best to keep everything going on peacefully.


Then again, these all could be just me overthinking stuff too deeply, yet I still feel the need to get this out of my chest somewhere a little public to make me feel better.


Thank you for listening : )




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BUSY :iconraginglenplz: primarily because of work
both dying and enjoying every bit of it

I'll be slow in responding to online stuff except skype for another week so yeah :icongtthplz:


BACK TO WORK
Woops, forgot to advertise this in my own journal :iconlaughsplz:

:iconcrystaltales: is currenly open for enrollment! You still have roughly 3 weeks if you're interested in joining hehehe :iconureshiiplz://///

And about life, got back from Philippines trip 2 weeks ago! I'm forever late in updating journals jkdfgdgh It was fun uuuuuuu I ate a lot noooooo and just last weekend my mom visited my current city for something else then I ended up showing her around for culinary trip. RIP diet :iconshadowedplz:

I SHALL LOSE SOME WEIGHT STARTING TODAY :iconraginglenplz:
Will be going to Philippines with :iconoseike: and meet up some friends there and have fun! Doing last minutes packing like usual while dying so goodnight and see you next week~ If you ever need anything while I'm away, tweet/fb/line me because I'll be unlikely to check DA inbox during the trip. Hopefully can check stuff everynight


:iconkiligplz:
Just like the title, I'm having a busy month on basically everything which is the reason why I've been neglecting my dA inbox. Thank you for the birthday wishes and comments and replies! Will get to them soon after I'm less busy q v q <3

Summary; rescued a kitten who couldn't make it after less than 3 weeks, been sick from the same period of time (still having a cough now), work is super busy but very fun! Gonna pace back for group stuff and if lucky, I'll find mood and time for personal works~
I'm back from the depths of hell and land of the dead :iconureshiiplz:

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR THE GET WELL WISHES Q H Q <3333

Went back to work straight away starting yesterday and all is good! Will try to get some exercise to burn up the weight I gained at home from doing nothing but eat-meds-sleep all the day :iconmilly-fox:

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Late hiatus announcement but yes, I've been really sick since last Friday to the point I have to stay in hometown for recovery. Been unable to online (I check twitter and skype quite regularly though) and draw for almost a week also. I miss drawing T___T I'm neglecting my crystal-tales mission entries too huhuhuhuuu :iconpandarunplz:

I'm getting better now after two doctors and eight sets of medicines. Hopefully will come back to work and get active online again next week!
nvm he knows how to get away from punishment by giving me sexy casual clothes



FORGIVEN.

I want to tie up Izumi no Kami no Kanesada as a punishment for keep burning my gold troops.

:iconnbplz: :iconblushtonguewhipplz: :iconnbplz: :iconblushtonguewhipplz: :iconnbplz: :iconblushtonguewhipplz:

and I'm in ecchi thoughts fasting today I should focus on work instead of imagining...yeah.
  • Listening to: Sound Horizon - Nein album
  • Reading: Arslan Senki
  • Watching: Saint Seiya: Gold Soul
  • Playing: Shelter 2
  • Eating: McD
  • Drinking: Jasmine tea
This is not an april fools' joke ok :iconlulfaceplz:

:iconrainbowsparklesplz: :iconcrystaltales: :iconcrystaltales: :iconcrystaltales: :iconrainbowsparklesplz:

The group is opening a mini enrollment! Deadline is 18th April so yeh joiiiin go check it out :iconureshiiplz://////







Also a quick update on RL:
- I'm doing quite good in my current job, it's been 6 month since I moved to this city and so far I like it. Cold weather and hard rainy days are the best for my health since I was born in a mountain town (got pretty sickly in my cities before, they're hot)
- WORK IS STRESSFUL BUT WHAT IS NOT STRESSFUL ANYWAY
- There's a McD between the way home/to office from my boarding house. This is bad. It has been my weekly craving like...now. gonna get some after this

Plus random stuff like:



I BOUGHT NAZCA BABE ABUBUBUBU from Kamen Rider W



Attempted to do lineless paint holy shit so much pain I cannot continue this-



My sister dragged me down to this Taiwanese Pili homo puppets fandom (so pretty dammit)



FAKIR IS SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEE and the anime (Princess Tutu) wrecked me for good :icondeadbodyplz:



The new sentai series is quite entertaining :iconbeardstrokeplz:



Played Shelter 2 and it killed me with feels esp when your cubs starved to death but I had fun mauling deers



I'm into princes now like the Alfonso (Garo: Honoo no Kokuin) and,



--this cute Prince Arslan over here (from Arslan Senki's 90's manga)
THEY'RE BOTH BLONDE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA NOW YOU KNOW MY PREFERENCES IN HAIR COLOR


"Will you marry me"
"Yes, your majesty"
jkjk I can't read chinese idk what are they talking about but I ship them. TOO LOVEY DOVEY throughout the manga.

Winter anime series have ended pakyuu Aldnoah Zero but yaaay soon spring anime series will be here :iconthegloryofplz:
  • Listening to: One OK Rock - Mighty Long Fall
  • Reading: 90's Arslan Senki
  • Watching: waiting for UtaPuri
  • Playing: Caesar III
  • Eating: McD
  • Drinking: Water
My 2015 resolution: Making the impossible possible.


...though that was kind of hard actually, I'm so limited with everything yet so many things I want to get/do :iconmaximumderpplz:

So yeah, 2014 wasn't so productive art-wise for me. I only went active for a while during Pixiv Fantasia, which I don't think I'll be able to join PF next year as I get busier with work T u T) And will be pouring my heart and soul for crystal-tales!

And even though I didn't have much art improvement on 2014, but I did have a lot of precious real life improvements throughout the year. Working life-wise, I moved to Jakarta early in the year after being kicked out from the first company I worked in (no regrets, I'm glad they gave me the kick because I was stuck there though I kinda missed the atmosphere). That 2nd job didn't go well, thus I resigned and found my 3rd which was definitely better. Bandung has weather similar to my hometown so it almost feels like home~

Personal life-wise, I think I've learned much in how to control my emotions- especially anger and jealousy. Well, anger still (always) gets the best of me but at least I don't leash it out everytime and just sit down, talking to myself about how unworthy they are to receive my divine punishment while trying to cool down. Though I often word them out in social medias oops sorry X'9! Jealousy though, I did really, really a good job oppressing it. Not that I have no trust or loyalty (some of you might know that loyalty is my middle name), but most of the time possessiveness takes control. Sorry if I ever let you witness it + v +) But nevertheless, I cried less and had tamer behaviour mwehehehe that's a great improvement!

ALSO MY ENGLISH IS GROWING BETTER IT HAS LEVELED UP FROM CONVERSATIONAL TO a bit LITERATURE LEVEL just a very little bit tho I'm still trying :icongtthplz:

Thank you for my friends who keep supporting me through good and bad moments, and I apologize if I'm not that good in keeping contacts and communication toward everyone ; 7 ; My memory is bad too and I keep forgetting who's who especially after some people changed their nick/usernames like H U H WHO ARE YOU...

Special thanks to my husbando Oseike who made my year. Thank you for putting up with me when I'm super high (with tokusatsu and armors lmaooo) or when I'm super down. Can't wait to see you <333

Happy New Year 2015!
  • Listening to: Together We Map The World - HTTYD2
  • Reading: Tokyo Ghoul
  • Watching: Garo Honoo no Gakuin
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: -
  • Drinking: Water
So, friends, listen to me. I'm going to tell you about an indie game called 'Shelter'.

You are a mother badger. You have five cubs and all of you are ready to leave the nest to open world.



Feeding them with plucked out roots, frogs, and mice, they grow stronger and bigger gradually. Great food for preying eagles.



But you are not aware of the danger of the night; predators lurking in the darkness. They take two of your cubs, and all you can hear is your babies' cries while being dragged away in the dark forest.



Raindrops drizzle like blood in the sunset, and you have flooding river to cross with your cubs. Another two get washed away because you failed to lead them under the rock while crossing.



With the last remaining cub, your precious baby, you strive through the forest and find yourselves surrounded in burning trees. Eagles are preying above, but the bushes where you can hide under are catching fire. You see a turnip- your cub hasn't eaten for a while since you've been trying to get away from the forest fire- and you go to pluck it out the ground. Your cub is happy, it's running to you because oh god it's starving, and that's when an eagle takes away your cub. You turn around. Your cub is gone. You are alone. You drop the root from your mouth hoping to see running cubs happily feast on it. But no one comes.



You can finally catch a fox after a lot of failed attempts before. It's a big feast- I mean, meat! A fox! Come on kids, don't hold back! Feed yourself to the fullest! If only any of you survived...



Aah! You are attacked by a white eagle! It knocks you down after three swipes and takes you to somewhere.



It's a nest, her nest. Five hungry chicks are waiting for their mother to feed them something tasty. And then you realize; the mice and foxes you have killed are the same. They might have children at nest waiting for them to return with food. The predators did nothing wrong, the eagle was no evil. They're all just trying to survive in the wild.

(Though the 2nd gameplay was a little better- I succeed in keeping two cubs alive until the end. I saw them running to safe place while I sacrificing myself being the eagle's target. The cubs were crying, probably looking for their mother, but fear not; they will grow up big and have a family on their own.)

In short,

fwak you feels.
:icondeadbodyplz:

Waiting for the sequel which will be released on February 2015, this time it will be mother Linx.


Cold tundra, snow, hunting rabbits and deers. Sounds fun? The cubs look cute? Wait until you let them die :iconhesmirkplz:
  • Listening to: Together We Map The World - HTTYD2
  • Reading: Tokyo Ghoul
  • Watching: Garo Honoo no Gakuin
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: -
  • Drinking: Water
Tagged by :iconzentian::icondjroguefire::iconvampkimi: OKAY FINE IMMA DO THIS MUSIC TAG DFGFDHH (WAS TOO LAZY BEFORE)


[mafumafu] Lost One's Weeping
WHAT A GOOD START LMAO this song represents my taste in music perfectly especially the lyric. Aaaand, my favorite nico singer mafumafuuuuu/////



Dark-themed game OST wheee /o/



Another heartbreaking song especially if you read the manga... Pakking Pandora Hearts give back my tears T ^ T


[Ribs] Shinzou (Heart) Democracy
LMAO ANOTHER HEARTBREAKING SONG yeah this is my playlist everyone Lyric here.


[yuuto] Haro/Hawaru (Hello/How Are You)
FINALLY A LIGHTER MUSIC... Lyric.

:icongo-on-plz:....my shuffled playlist decided to pick angst/sad songs (which are my favorites and definitely fill my playlist aww yea) and then ended with a lighthearted music u 3 u
  • Listening to: The Last Remnant - The Gates of Hell
  • Reading: Kurayami ni strobe
  • Watching: Garo Honoo no Gakuin
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: -
  • Drinking: Water
Tagged by :iconzentian:~

RULE 1. You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2. You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
Now, here's what you're supposed to do... And please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your journal, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 5-10 of your friends to answer this.  Then see what happens.

1. Asked someone to marry you?
Innocent

2. Kissed one of your friends?
Innocent

3. Danced on a table in a bar?
Innocent

4. Ever told a lie?
Guilty

5. Had feelings for someone whom you can't have?
Guilty

6. Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
Innocent

7. Kissed a picture?
Guilty

8. Slept in until 5 PM?
Guilty

9. Fallen asleep at work/school?
Guilty

10. Held a snake?
Guilty

11. Been suspended from school? NEARLY
Guilty

12. Worked at a fast food chain/restaurant?
Innocent

13. Stolen something? 
Guilty

14. Been fired from a job? 
Guilty

15. Done something you regret?
Guilty

16. Laughed until something you were drinking came out of your nose?
Innocent

17. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? :icondidyoujustplz:
Innocent

18. Kissed in the rain?
Innocent

19. Sat on a roof top?
Innocent

20. Kissed someone you shouldn't?
Innocent

21. Sang in the shower?
Guilty

22. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Guilty

23. Shaved your head?
Innocent

24. Slept naked?
Innocent

25. Had a boxing membership?
Innocent

26. Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Innocent 

27. Been in a band?
Innocent

28. Shot a gun?
Innocent

29. Donated Blood?
Guilty

30. Eaten alligator meat?
Innocent

31. Eaten cheesecake?
Guilty

32. Still love someone you shouldn't?
Innocent

33. Have/had a tattoo?
Innocent

34. Liked someone, but will never tell who?
Innocent

35. Been too honest?
Guilty

36. Ruined a surprise?
Guilty

37. Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you can't walk afterwards?
Guilty

38. Erased someone in your friends list?
Guilty

39. Dressed in a woman's clothes (if you're a guy) or man's clothes (if you're a girl)?
Innocent

40. Joined a pageant?
Innocent

41. Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Guilty

42. Still have communication w/ your ex?
Guilty

43. Cheated on someone?
Innocent

44. Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning? THIS WOULD BE FUN
Innocent

45. A total stranger treated you by paying your fare?
Innocent

46. Get totally angry that you cried so hard?
Guilty

47. Tried to stay away from someone for their own good?
Guilty

48. Thought about suicide?
Guilty

49. Thought about murder?
Guilty

50. How about Mass Murder?
Guilty

51. Rode in a stranger's vehicle?
Guilty

52. Stalked someone?
Innocent

53. Had a girlfriend/boyfriend
Guilty

BUT I DON'T FEEL GUILTY BY EVER THINKING ABOUT MURDER :iconraginglenplz: THEY'RE ASSHOLES ANYWAY

I don't tag anyone :la: feel free to do this~
  • Listening to: Sound Horizon - The Crucified Saint
  • Reading: Kurayami ni strobe
  • Watching: Garo Honoo no Gakuin
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: -
  • Drinking: Water
It's...Zankyou no Terror.

There's a lot of good anime series in this year's summer, and I watched quite a lot of titles at first. Later, I dropped some (almost half) because of the quality and personal interest mid-way or right after first episode (Sailor Moon I'm looking at you). And in the end there's only 5 titles that I watched fully until last episode, they are Haikyuu!, Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-kun, Free!, Aldnoah Zero, and Zankyou no Terror.

The last two titles are so traumatizing skjdfsdkjghs especially the last :iconstephencolbertomgplz: WHILE THE REST ARE HAPPY SCHOOL BOYS AND GIRLS
I'm still recovering from the ending and I guess it'll take time :iconnashaplz: It's not helping that the weather in my country represents Japan's summer time very well.
ALSO HEY KAMEN RIDER GAIM EPS 46 KILLED ME TOO but then they decided to add filler episodes which will ruin the plot and timeline for sure o<-<

Now brb imma getting the OST (it's Yoko Kanno's work holy shit no wonder) and weeping in the corner on my own puddle of tears :iconsulkplz:
  • Listening to: Zankyou no Terror OST
  • Reading: Tetsugaku Letra
  • Watching: Kamen Rider GAIM
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: -
  • Drinking: Green Tea
My first day in Bandung didn't start well because of reasons (which left me upset and feeling stupid for days) but somehow I managed to get a new better place. It's very nice and omg how I miss living in all-girls boarding house ; 7 ; veeeerrrryyy comfortableeeeeeeeee
Will take me time to get used with the environment here, but I know I'll do good ehehehe
  • Listening to: One more time, one more chance - 5cm per second
  • Reading: Tetsugaku Letra
  • Watching: Kamen Rider GAIM
  • Playing: Bastion
  • Eating: -
  • Drinking: Green Tea
Hopefully in 2 weeks I'll be able to get active online again like before. Just need to endure and wait for the final decision a little more...and when the 'O.K.' answer is here, then I'll be one step closer to what I wanna be. It won't stop there though, I'll need to keep improving my skills to prove myself worthy in this area of expertise. I will be assigned in a task I'm not familiar with, and they've already expected a lot from me good lord I didn't apply for that one so why..... Trust me it was like a life and death decision just to say "I do." when they asked "Do you have the confidence in handling this?".

Life sure is interesting and I'm looking forward for more challenges in the future! :'D
  • Listening to: One more time, one more chance - 5cm per second
  • Reading: Tetsugaku Letra
  • Watching: Kamen Rider GAIM
  • Playing: Bastion
  • Eating: -
  • Drinking: Green Tea
Okay here comes another of my boring journal~

Life updates, hmm, I'm currently going online with my laptop sitting in my baby niece's crib. It's kind of comfy, but too warm for me. But still comfy. The downside is, it has fences.

Okay moving on to other life updates... I resigned from my latest job even tho it gave me HUGE salary for art job. The job was shitty and the bosses didn't have good sense in art (and they're the art directors, ugh). Plus there's a main reason why I resigned-- the company was...uuh... not so...healthy...in term of what they're working on. Life sure is surprising and depressing sometimes. So for now I'm gonna stay in my hometown! Working on the mini-game projects with my ex-workmates (3 programmers vs 1 lone artist, this is too awesome I'm dying) while looking for a job and resting, as my mom said. Hopefully will get one outside my country- though the chance is small since apparently my job is soooo specific almost no one urgently needs it. Cannot give up though, I need to keep on moving!

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Tagged by Oseike <3

Ten Facts About Me:
1. I'm a dog person, preferably small dogs- noisy and demanding. Though I don't dislike cats. They're cuteee both of them are cuteeeeee
2. I want to try baking something, maybe a cake or some fancy western baked food. Never had or used an oven before.
3. I feel like what I want to obtain in life are pretty simple, but thanks to money issue and geography, they become so hard to gain.
4. My love life is very complicated I don't understand it anymore. I've given up trying to hold it back and I'll just follow what my heart says. But of course I will keep trying to make my dream happens :'D
5. I WANT PET GOATS.
6. ..okay I just stretched inside the crib and it creaked so loud I think I broke something inside.
7. My favorite vegetable is broccoli.
8. My mom is expecting baby spawns out of me but I don't want to marry just to have kids. For me marriage is far more than having kids. It's a very special bond to tie two people together (or more, if that meets your fancy) and having a baby isn't always the only option.
9. I have satellite TV at home but all I watch is National Geographic or Animals Planet.
10. Going to places not everyone wants to go is my dream. Like Bhutan. My target is to visit Turkey by 2015 even though it seems impossible by now.


Questions timeeeee~~

1. Would you be interested in experiencing a day in another body? That body can look like anything you want, but the caveat is it will be the opposite physical gender. (extra: if yes, what would it look like?)
I WOULD I WOULD! It should be interesting and I'll do everything my female body can't do for the whole day. I prefer to be in a muscular body but still lean-built. I want to feel my testosterone abs without getting grossed over too-muscular body HAHAHA. And no. No body hair. Chest hair even. EEEEWWW...

2. It's the zombie apocalypse! You and your friends are immune to the virus that turns people (a la Left 4 Dead). So what's your ideal arsenal? Feel free to describe the array you would equip on your person to carry as you are outside.
A department store would be perfect. It has everything you need- canned food, electronics, tools, and even weapons. Even though in the game I like being a sniper, in reality I might just get assault rifle and medium-ranged melee weapon (because close-ranged is eeeew the zombies are dirtyyyy). Friends can get anything they want but I hope they have varieties in choosing weapons.

3. If you could gain skill in one thing - not related to your career, but for fun or a hobby - what you gain?
Carpenter-y skill. Building houses and making furnitures out of wood seem fun, plus it's useful and cheaper than buying it in stores~

4. What is your oldest possession that you still use and keep with you?
My daily clothes my mom sewn back there when I was in junior high, but I guess that's not interesting. Let's go with my motorbike, Mio, which I have been driving on since I was 15! Now I'm almost 25 and she's still running wild on the street. Got scratches here and there and even fatal fractures on the front casing from two (out of five) accidents I had years ago. She's the first generation of Yamaha's automatic motorbike, Mio series, and her engine is still kickin' butts! Had to replace few minor parts half a year ago though.

5. List me three parts of yourself you love the most!
Sharp eyes which look kinda mean, my friends said. And then my black hair, short and thick. Bad haircut and I'd rage for days until it's fixed. Last, my neck area. I have sexy collarbones at least to my standard. :eyes:

6. Which room is your favorite place at home? Maybe not necessarily where you spend the most time, but the place you remember most fondly?
Family room, which is the heart of my home. It has access to living room, mom's working space, and kitchen. Dinner table and TV are in there too, along with my niece's crib and mom's laptop. Oh, refrigerator and bookshelf too. It's not spacious but we love to squeeze ourselves in here. Most of important talks and great meal times happen here too.

7. What is the #1 food you want to try? How about #1 food you never want to try?
Snake meat! Though don't show me the butcher I'm gonna cry... For drink, it's pine needles tea. I will never ever try Foie Gras because they make thousands of geese suffer to produce that DDD;8

8. Deep sea: y/n?
....IF I CAN HAVE A VERY SAFE CONTAINER WITH PROPER LIGHT AND PROTECTION... and another human beside me, then it's a y. Else, it's an n. NEIN.

9. When not arting, what else do you do for fun?
Cooking and going on a trip to somewhere not too far yet I haven't visited before. Getting lost in the process is just adding the fun factor ufufufu~

10. What movie can make you cry? |Dc
Literally anything except comedies (I don't even like them anyway). Whenever I watch a movie in cinema I always cry LOLOLOL. Movies about animals or have familial theme kill me well.

I TAG NO ONE because it's 3.26am I can't think of questions and feel free to tag yourself~</s>
  • Listening to: Ultraman Tiga - Take Me Higher
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Haikyuu!!
  • Playing: Bastion
  • Eating: Chocolate tofu
  • Drinking: Black Vanilla Tea